Saturday, March 9, 2013

Searching for Solitude

I am a social creature. I love hanging around with people, learning-listening, sharing-teaching, laughing-crying, resting,-doing. I generally say I am most connected to God when I am with others yet, in my deepest moments of loneliness my heart knows to seek God with in me and I am shifted into the graceful space of solitude within Him.

The word lonely brings so many reactions from within me and from other. When you tell someone that you feel lonely, they are quick to say, you are never alone...you know God loves you, you have people who love you. So is loneliness forgetting that you are loved? 

In the moments of being alone, how I connect to myself, to the things I enjoy, the things I enjoy doing, can either fill me with a deep sense of pleasure or I can long to share them with another. Quite often these days, I am able to rest in to the deep pleasures and know that when I do share the experiences with a friend, they will be the more sweet in the telling and sharing of them.

I like to share my thoughts, pleasures and pains with others. I like to hear how others experience things. Creating the right balance of when to be alone with myself and be with others is my personal university of life lessons...I have been learning how I relate to God in the quiet times of lonely and the blessed times of solitude. As I look within myself and see the Divine, I have become clear that when I am in the place and space of acceptance, I am able to see God with a peaceful light of love. 

So Lonely...the Police